provided

provides a direction for me





is that hard to grasp



I said



without you I m not motivated





I get nothing done





and




so it has been





nothing


waste





years







&






I have no illusions about this suffering



its justification




is absent





none

to


found







as its body time fer

dead time








MaMa





I was a man

till you stole that from me




almost forced me to become




something not worth




naming





repeating






as the explainers






ready to rush




in

















with their always ready